4/8/14 by Carol M. Hansen (with input from Carlo Furlan)
The room was musty with the smell
of body sweat
and stale smoke
as we prepared for the Passover.
I recalled the reckless splendor
of
the alabaster vial poured over the Master’s feet
just the day before –
how the sweet, heavy scent
burst
through the dank air
like a joyous reunion.
What was it He’d told us?
She was preparing His body for
burial?
What were we supposed to make of
that?
Was this another one of His
parables?
When evening softened the heat of
day,
we jostled into the small upstairs
room –
more like a closet, really -
our voices muted but cheerful.
Stretching tired legs, we reclined
on elbows
with grunts and sighs
but then the Master came with water
to wipe our feet –
our stinking, dust-coated feet!
Shocked into silence,
only Peter protested, but Jesus
persisted,
patiently washing
and drying each filthy foot,
head bent humbly to the servants’
task.
When He spoke it was to tell us
we
should do as He did:
“Love one another, as I have loved
you,” He said,
with that same confidence he always had when
presenting some audacious idea.
Everything in me rose up in protest
at the idea of debasing myself like
that,
and yet …
did I think I was better
than the Master?
As He settled in among us about the
table,
His face saddened as He ominously predicted:
“One of you will betray me.”
We glanced at one another in disbelief
–
Who could it be?
Was this another riddle?
He nodded to Judas and instructed
him
to act quickly so
Judas rose stiffly and
swiftly blended with night’s
shadows.
What could this mean?
The room was abuzz with
speculation until Jesus began
speaking,
saying that the shepherd would be
struck
and the sheep would be scattered;
where He was going, we could not go.
His voice ragged with sorrow,
He continued to give us many
warnings
and predictions
and reminders.
They swirled through my mind
and I
tried to grab
as much as I could
to tuck away for
later contemplation:
“In my Father’s
house are many dwelling places…”
“I am the way, the
truth and the life;
no one comes to the Father
but through Me.”
“Greater love has
no one than this,
that one lay down his life for his friends.”
“Heaven and earth
will pass away,
but my words will not pass away.”
At one point during the meal,
He
reached for the bread, saying,
“Take, eat; this is My body, broken
for you.”
By this point, my mind was numb –
something
wasn’t right,
but I couldn’t grasp what it was.
I watched the bread crumble in His
fingers as He broke it,
heard the dull snap – His body?
The Master could be so baffling
sometimes.
When we had each broken off a
portion,
He lifted the wine and spoke again,
looking at each of us in turn:
“This is my blood of the covenant,
which is poured out for many.
Drink from it, all of you.”
His hand trembled as he passed the
goblet,
And we in turn passed it from hand
to rough hand in silence.
It was a somber moment, tinged with
sorrow
and puzzlement,
for our hearts were darkened
and we could not grasp what we had
heard.
We let the sweet wine slip down our
throats
knowing somehow that this moment –
this meal –
was much more than it seemed,
more even than the Passover
it
traditionally celebrated.
In awed silence,
we waited
and wondered.